Last night at a mall in Utah, an 18 year old gunman went apeshit and mowed some people down. I went to CNN.com, read this article, and became absolutely fucking irate for a number of different reasons. Stories and news coverage like this just really drive me to the point where I consider acting out violently.
First off, what kind of fucking person makes the decision to put this picture on the main page of the most popular news sites in the world. CNN is a fucking worldwide news company, respected by the international community. They're a fucking joke, and their ethics make me want to puke all over my keyboard.
This poor girl is fucking dead. I'm sure there are plenty of people who cared about this girl, who loved her, and I bet they're in absolute agony right now. I bet they're crying and mourning the loss of someone they care about. And then they get a phone call saying "Hey, I think CNN has Jane Doe dead on their main page, lying there in front of Bath and Body Works."
Isn't that fucking cute? How do you think the family feels, knowing that a daughter, a sister, maybe an aunt or a cousin is lying there dead on the front page of CNN. Now, I know you might call me a hypocrite seeing as I have the picture here. I have a lot of readers, in the thousands per day, but not millions per day like CNN. I'm showing the picture in defense of this poor girl, not to exploit her. That is the key difference.
I once got myself into a bit of trouble in a similar situation a couple years ago. I was reading the online publication of my local newspaper, and a young stupid girl had left her baby in the car, in the sun, and the baby died. She was a young mother, and just didn't realize how hot it gets in the car in Florida I guess. Dumb ignorant bitch, but regardless, she just her new baby. She was on her knees, and just fucking bawling her eyes out, completely suffering. The absolute greatest pain a woman can feel.
And this cocksucking photographer, by the name of Matt Beck snaps a few pictures of her right in this moment. And of course the paper publishes it. I see the picture, and in the exact same way I feel right now, I go apeshit. I can't even comprehend how a human being can be so evil and black as to be able to take a picture of something like that, and then publish it for your own gain.
I email the guy, ripping him a new asshole in the standard Sick Matt fashion. He doesn't email me back. I call him, and get him right at his fucking desk. I tell him who I am, and I start debating him. I tell him he has no soul, and that he is lower than a piece of shit. I accuse him of masturbating to pain. I right out accused him of jacking off to death, I accused him of loving snuff porn.
I eventually threatened him, and told him that I was going to find him, rip his camera out of his hands, and smash it over his fucking face. I (bad idea) went out of my way to convince him I was serious. I literally told him "I'm not just pissed dude, I'm really going to smash your camera over your fucking head the next time you're in public." He called the cops and I got a phone call. I just denied the accusations and that was it. It was a 1 minute conversation with the officer.
So I don't know why this stuff makes me so mad. It really burns me up. The lack of compassion for death and suffering I suppose. It's one thing when it's someone who sucks a fat dick, like Gerald Ford or Anna Nicole. I don't care about them. It's the average Joe's and Jane's who I stick up for, who deserve a little bit of fucking humanity in their time of suffering, or death. I really don't know why this makes me as crazy as it does, but that's just me.
And as for the actual crime itself; I feel for the kid. 18 years old and fucking angry at the world. I've been there. I've seen it before and I've talked about this before on the site. Doing something like this is just suicide with another ingredient. Anger. Suicide happens when the pain you feel outweighs your ability to cope. Well sometimes, your anger and sadness make an enormous weight, that completely smash your coping skills. Anger + Depression>Coping Skills=Killing Spree. That's the formula.
Who creates these little fuckers? I'll tell you who does, it's these fucking alpha male truck driving football fuckers who have kids. Yeah, it's you cunts. You raise your kids to be little miniature versions of you, so they just go to skill and fuck with kids all day because hey, they're mini alpha males like their daddies!
So they spend the next 12 years of their school life fucking with kids every chance they get, just so they can feel superior. These kids deal with this abuse every day of their life until they just fucking lose it. They lose their ability to cope, and this is what happens. If they're not intelligent enough, or wealthy enough to go to a psychiatrist, then stuff like this happens. He just had no other way to deal with his pain anymore. He was just a kid.
I know 18 is legally an adult, but you know as well as I know that you hadn't a fucking clue about the world when you were 18 years old. I thought I knew it all, but I was wrong. I'm not excusing his behavior. Obviously, he had no soul either. And this is he story I'm trying to tell here.
We have two people who did things that required the lack of a fucking soul. Of a heart. Two evil acts. Person X, whoever decided to take the picture of a girl who was just slaughtered and put it on the main page of CNN.com and the 18 year old kid who couldn't figure out any other way to deal with his pain anymore. He didn't just commit mass murder, he committed suicide. Blind revenge was his method of suicide. Out with a bang, fuck you world.
The difference is that this kid's soul was killed long ago. Slowly but surely, the world was just far to fucked up to him, and it ruined him. People ruined him. Life ruined him, and he paid it back. It was the worst possible choice he could have made, but it was the only one that made sense to him. But with CNN, it's much different. It's just a truly evil person who has no respect for life or death. A person who feels nothing, dead to normal human emotions of compassion, only concerned with getting as many people to the website as possible.
In closing, I say fuck you alpha male cunts who don't teach your kids how to be real young men. Who don't teach your kids to be heroes, to kick the asses of the bullies. You should tell your sons that if you ever pick on a kid, you're in big fucking trouble. I'm not going to preach as to how that message needs to be delivered. But you need to tell your fucking kids not to fuck with other kids. It'll never happen though. As long as we have these truck-driving, beer chugging, football watching standard "Rawr I'm a man" guys, we'll kids who shoot up their schools or go on killing sprees. And as long as media exists, there will be absolute scumbags who will continue to find new lows to get ratings or hits.
Thank you Anna Nicole/Vickie Lynn for your successful contribution to the betterment of my life. And thank you for the exciting news coverage you have brought me on this day. I look forward to never hearing or seeing your obnoxious fat face again.
